May 17th

Where has the time gone? It's the middle of May already!?
I feel like life is slipping away everyday, and so I've been trying hard to do something everyday to work towards something better for myself. My life is not shit, but I expect so much more than where I'm at right now.
It's been 3 weeks now, and I've gone to the gym 5 days per week. It feels pretty good considering I'd lost my routine after moving to NoHo last summer! There are no excuses, are there...

I have been dreaming lately of having a dog...I grew up with dogs from the time I was a baby. We first had Buster who was a mut, but a great mut! and then we got Max our golden retriever, and then we got Milo another golden 5 years before Max passed away.
I am living here without a dog, and I'm finding it hard. I have the yearning to take care of a pet, because it improves the quality of my life 10 fold being able to have that companionship. So lately I've been looking at all the breeders in my area for goldens, and ones that are up for adoption as well, but we must wait until we have a place that allows dogs, and is large enough for one!
For now I'll have to play with my friends dogs...

I have gotten closer and closer to knowing what my ideal life is, and now find myself moving closer to that dream. I have to or else I will live without happiness, and fullfillment! I am grateful for this!

peace-Jen