Saturday, May 20, 2006

The photo above is a shot I took from our 2 hour wait to get on a freakin trolly in San Francisco summer of 2005. It was totally worth the wait, but so hot out!
Almost a year has gone by since I took that picture, and it happened to be July 4th, 2005.
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This year we have planned to be with friends on the beach in beautiful San Diego.
I have fallen in love with that city, perhaps beacuse there are a few million less people in it?
No, it's the beaches!
And we can go to the baseball stadium without worrying if we are going to get stabbed or mugged in the parking lot!! haha! I'm not joking...
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This weekend has been so relaxing with no plans, and nothing to do but cook and shop, and play 2003 Tiger Woods Golf on playstation. I'm hooked.
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"Anything missing from your life? Give it out and it'll come back at you ten fold!"
Peace - Jen

Thursday, May 18, 2006

May 17th


Where has the time gone? It's the middle of May already!?
I feel like life is slipping away everyday, and so I've been trying hard to do something everyday to work towards something better for myself. My life is not shit, but I expect so much more than where I'm at right now.
It's been 3 weeks now, and I've gone to the gym 5 days per week. It feels pretty good considering I'd lost my routine after moving to NoHo last summer! There are no excuses, are there...

I have been dreaming lately of having a dog...I grew up with dogs from the time I was a baby. We first had Buster who was a mut, but a great mut! and then we got Max our golden retriever, and then we got Milo another golden 5 years before Max passed away.
I am living here without a dog, and I'm finding it hard. I have the yearning to take care of a pet, because it improves the quality of my life 10 fold being able to have that companionship. So lately I've been looking at all the breeders in my area for goldens, and ones that are up for adoption as well, but we must wait until we have a place that allows dogs, and is large enough for one!
For now I'll have to play with my friends dogs...

I have gotten closer and closer to knowing what my ideal life is, and now find myself moving closer to that dream. I have to or else I will live without happiness, and fullfillment! I am grateful for this!

peace-Jen

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

History of Dating

In the 1940's and 50's it was expected of the young that you would seriously date, and find a mate or someone to marry.
In highschool dating was expected and then in college was where you most likely would find your partner.
The iinstitution of marriage was very different than it is in 2006. It was a part of the American psyche that you were expected to have a marriage, and make it work no matter what. It was implied that marriage was very important and was to be treated as sacred, and something that required a lot of work. Divorce meant you were an outcast, divorce was the last resort. Today, the process of divorce has become so much more easy that, many troubled couples find it easier to opt out of the relationship than to stick to it and come through problems. There are many relationships that are better ended in divorce, but there are so many that could be saved if it were considered sacred.

As I write this I need to talk about getting to know someone. Many people marry to marry, and get to know someone after marriage only to find that they are not as a god match as they had previously thought. What happened to getting to know someone? What happened to saving yourself for someone special? What happened to the art of dating?
I see fewer and fewer people setting others up on dates or having friendly gatherings where people can meet, WITHOUT THE INFLUENCE OF ALCOHOL! Are we too busy? Is life so fast that we forget to pay attention to each other?
In a city like Los Angeles, everyone drives to work, to the store, to the bank, everywhere! So in able to meet a mate, you'd literally have to hit someone with your car! Because of the isolated lifestyle here, many people avoid contact with each other. Perhaps this is because this is what we get used to doing, in our cars, at work, etc...

Anyhoo, this is just me rambling about an institution that has changed over so many years, and there certainly are cultures and humans that cmpletely value marriage as sacred, but there are also those in between who do not have any clue what a successful marriage entails and have never had a great example of it growing up.

-Jen

Monday, January 30, 2006

My Man

On the eve of valentines day, I write these words about my beau.

My True Companion

Adventure abounds
Lets drive into the mountains
There are mountains here?
Cuisine our magnet
Life rich
Familiarity in family
We are never alone

You've seen me at my worst
torn, sad
loved me as I am
monkey boy
monkey girl
cuddling early morning

Passions, interests
travel, gambling
time passes
don't notice do you?
So much fun
laughing, and living

Support and cheering
To chase dreams
Happiness
we want for the other
This is our life
give and take
adventures to come
communication, compromise

you found me
here's to friendship
tears of joy
day in day out
goof-ball, nerd, silly
dorky, loud, funny
nicknames

adventure awaits
fun abounds
we have a world to see
lets drive, go somewhere
coffee in hand
I laugh
that's all I need

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

2006

The holidays went so fast, and I was in three different states for each one at the end of 2005. Thanksgiving in San Francisco, Christmas in Seattle, and New Years in Raleigh, NC. What a freakin whirlwind!! It was just enough time to say hi and then leave.
It is now 2006, and I have decided that I'm tired of not knowing what to do with my life.
I know the things I'm interested in, but don't have a clue about what to do about the long term picture!? I do know there are people out there that refuse to face that feeling, and they go their entire lives working mindless jobs that do NOT make them happy.
At least this puts me in the category of "not completely, and utterly lost."

It is now time to realize that I do too much for others. I am constantly keeping my friends entertained, and always filling my schedule with get-togethers, and social functions. Now, this is not an entirely bad thing, but it is when I feel like I am not doing enough for myself.
I came to this conclusion after much discusion with my boyfriend. I am now determined to figure out what I want to do wth my life (maybe becoming a teacher) and to get healthy, and maintain a healthy weight for my frame. This is for me!!

Happiness is key, and the key to Happiness is using your gifts to help others.

JP